Thursday, October 30, 2008

0 comments @ 12:50 AM

Alright, I've not been updating for so long. I've gotten back my report book. Good news: I'm proudly promoted :) Bad news: Well, I did very badly overall. Definitely capable of doing better.

So, our school ended and Mrs Yeo is going to leave us. We had a concert for her, didn't seat through it. I wanted to, though. Sadly, didn't. Heard that it was kinda lame from some and others said that it was not bad. Whatever it is, at least I have a rough idea on what happened. :)

Met the casts backstage and yes, that's because I was a backstage crew too. Bad bad day, I tell ya. Was screamed at like nobody's business, treated like a dog and bad-mouthed. All done right in front of my damn bloody face.

Anyhow, It doesn't matter no more. The past is the past :) And I abide by all those just because of the sad fact that I am still a student, a kid and that my results and everything else is controlled by others.

Let's see.. 10 days have passed and dozens of things has happened. Can't re-tell all one-by-one, though. The O level kids are still in the midst of their war. There's still two more weeks to go!! Fighting!!! You're half-way through!!!

And yes, I've not been hanging with Joel & co. for super duper long, have not been with Caroline, 5Ns & co. for almost a month. Really damn long. What happened? Before I knew it, I've become a social butterfly again -____- sighs.

Currently, I'm still hunting for the K-POP CONCERT TICKETS. Hopefully I'll be able to go, ohmigosh..

Hmm.. And it's been very long since I last talked to Mr Lim too! Haha! :D Still as crazy as ever! Still kiddish! XD Wanted to meet during Deepavali but ended up not meeting up :( And it was a rainy Deepavali, gosh. What's more, Izzati couldn't make it anyways =/ So, what happened to poor Cindy? She stayed at home and gambled XD LOL!! Joking~

Was really at home and I played Mahjong and poker XD HAHA! Did super badly for the first day but everything changes on the second day! :D Wheeee!! Beginners just need some training and you'll be SUPER shocked at what we have in store! :D

And coming up, it's Halloween! How are you guys preparing?? Are you guys gonna celebrate it?? I've always wanted to celebrate Halloween. So I thought this year I would too. Surprisingly, I am rather adamant about it right now.. For some reason.

Then, Caroline invited me to a party that she's gonna have with the guys. I agreed to go. Thing is, everyone has to dress up. Wondering what I'm gonna be. I sort of have an idea already. Wonder if it'll work. And am glad that I spent my day yesterday with Carol :)

Speaking of which, I also spent a day with Din just a few days ago XD long timeeeeeeeee!! Bought lots of things. Not me, her. Stupidly, we kept reminding each other to take a picture and I even brought my camera along with me, but guess what? We forgot! -_____- So yeah.. No pictures for that day! :( Sad! Well, there are some pictures.. Of manikins and brands, that is.

Last words:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWEK BEST FRIEND!!!
Hope your wishes come true. Of course, you'll be understood one day. :)

-"One must be a wise reader to quote wisely and well."-
Ambrose Bierce

I would want to live longer...

Monday, October 20, 2008

0 comments @ 2:09 AM

Golly, I am lazy to go to school. Seriously, although we supposedly have lessons. I mean, our exams are just over and yet we still have lessons to prepare ourselves for the war next year. How bothersome! Soldiers need rest after a battle!

Well, complaining is not gonna do any good anyway. Plus, it ain't as if my results were amazing. Oh well, Monij has been away with Kenji all the way in Malaysia. Was alone again the past few days.

Pretty much alright, except for the fact that some unexpected things happened. Not to me, but to one of the close people to me. It was something intolerable, over-rated, over-blown. I am not a sexist or a girly girl.

In fact, I have been around boys my entire life. I have been a down-right tomboy with no affection towards guys in the ways girls normally do. There was never a time when I thought of getting away from guys because I'm oh-so-afraid of the opposite gender or wish to be together with any, cause I have been like a guy myself.

Point is, although I have been a tomboy, I do realise that I am a girl and that nothing will ever be changed, nor do I want to change it. I realise that some of the things that guys are deeply in love with are just so over-rated for me. I also realise that I can never understand the way some males think. The way they do the things they do, the way they want things. They are just unreasonable.

All and all, females will always be hurt at the end of the day. Why must it be so? Well, sometimes, I do feel that I should have the ability to change my gender in order to save the women clan. Seriously, I feel hopeless sometimes. Hopeless that I am unable to do anything, no matter how much I want. No matter how much I wish I could.

Actually, changing my gender may not be much of a help too. It may make me feel even worse, too. I just wish that I have the power to do something. Do something for one so dear to me. For anyone I place close to my heart.

Of course, if you truly mean it, things don't have to be shown obviously in actions. Your thoughts and feelings should be able to penetrate your bones and skins and the physical distance. That is what I am trying to do right now. Trying to with my very best. I do not know if anyone will ever understand this. It was something really unacceptable.

I am happy with my life right now because although not many people undestand me, at least some are able to understand some parts. And thus, although divided by many, bits and pieces of me are sewed together when these people come together.

The same thing goes to this friend of mine, I pressume. Although I may not be 100% correct, but being with her for a long time, I am positive that it is at least 95% true. Alas, a piece of her is gone. Gone with the passing time, unrewindable.

It was a piece placed onto me, only much later. When everything was too late. First thing that came to my mind was to scold her. But again, nothing's gonna change and it'll only make things worse. I want things to get better. At least for the feelings to be better. I hope it will be healed.

I never imagined that such a day will ever come. I always knew that she was strong, that she would never make any wrong decisions. Although, of course, she had, she will definitely correct her mistakes, you know.

In this case, things aren't so simple no more. As much as it seems simple, deep in her she is not the same. There's a cut. No matter how thin and tiny. No matter how fine and barely visible it may be. It hurts me to see.

Anyway, I'm so lazy!!! Sigh, hope tomorrow will be a fine day! And ALL THE BEST TO ALL O LEVEL STUDENTS!! Tomorrow is the start of their battle! :) I'm nervous for them! ^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHYONE!!!!!!!!!
Do get a boyfriend soon :P But NEVER forget me! XP I'll kill you IF you EVER do!

Alfreda, get well... Love you! Please be okay.
-You'll be surprised at how near your fears are.-

I would want to live longer...

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

0 comments @ 10:17 PM

Monday

Probably one of the saddest and happiest days in my Sec 3 school life. Guess what? It's the last day that I'll be going to school with Kinny, Jen and Tiffanto! Really really saddening. Though my exams are over, something is really missing. They're away for their war. For a war that I know not of, a war where I'm not there. Not yet, anyway.

Then again, I can meet them elsewhere outside school. However, being me, the single soul, next year will be so sad! Of course, I still have Mir, no doubt :) And ya.. There's Dinika too.. And Joel and more. I suppose it's just that I'll miss them. Really really much :]

Okay, and it is also one of the happiest at the same time because I scored pretty well for my English! ^^ Truly, I believe that I had aced it in the past. However, things changed. My English detoriate a lot! Thus, I was greatly and pleasantly surprised when I passed it with flying colours! Yes, of course, I didn't get A1 but A2 is DEFINITELY awesome! ^^

So yeah.. Happy and sad at the same time. Not only that. When I was about to eat my lunch, Wilona passed me a note. It was really a bitter-sweet note, or rather, letter. It really did caught me off-guard.

At that point of time, I really felt like crying. I did not know what to say to myself. The feeling that I had was.. Who am I? As in, who am I to deserve this? Who am I to deserve to be cherished so much. Who am I to deserve that unconditional care and concern? I was really deeply ashamed at myself. I am not one of those populer Queenkas, I am not all that talented, nor am I all that smart. I hardly ever did anything!

Yet, there are times when I feel lonely and down. To think about it, I am really lucky and fortunate. To have what I have, to live a life with little hardship and to know that there is someone out there for me.

Definitely, this became a reflection to me. A fact that I shall remember forever.

Anyways, I am currently HUNTING for the K CONCERT!! Wo0tz! Well, guess what? I actually found out that we could redeem tickets at Novena Square, or Square2. Sadly, I was out of school only at 3+PM and the tickets were given out from 11AM. What made it worse was the fact that people actually started queueing up as early as 7AM! GOSH! That's the time when I was still on my way to SCHOOL! O_O Hallelujah!

Hope I can get a ticket too!! X.X Umm.. Finna Appa, Phyone, Ardisa and Siska wanna go too! :D Oh, Michelley and Li Qing have gotten themselves a ticket each! ^^ Whee!! Can't wait!! *goes hunting* hee! :D

To Kinny: Heys.. Don't let anything bother you too much ya.. You can do it! :D And, good luck! For everything.. Be it in exams or things that do not concern school. :) Do your best! It's your last shot!

To ALL O level students: Hey!! GUYS, im gonna miss ALL of you really very very much! I swear! I'll never forget you guys, EVER! I really wish that you guys will be by my side during my last year in school. However, I can't be selfish. Plus, I do not want you guys to be in this school in that school uniform everyday! So, yeah, I sincerely wish that ALL of you will graduate! :)
But do promise me one thing please.. Don't forget me! Ya? :) Love you guys!! Hearts!

Iya.. Surat itu dari Kin Mun. Sumpah, gw mrasa gak enak.. But it truly was very sweet and touching... Even Jenny and the others felt so too. The only thing that I can do right now, is to at the very least, reply his message.
Smoga Kinny bisa mendapatkannya! :)

-"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched... but are felt in the heart."-
Helen Keller

I would want to live longer...

Sunday, October 12, 2008

0 comments @ 10:24 PM

Well! :) Hey, it's me again. Results were out on Friday. Practically hugged Kinny's Jacket throughout. Bloody nervous. Thanks Kin, indirectly ^^ Okay, fine, I sort of forced him into lending me his jacket XD Taha! Don't blame me~~ Gotta find some comfort.. Somehow!

It didn't well that bad. My essay was accepted! :) Awesome! The remarks were something like "Interesting story", "Good command of language" and "well done!" Pretty happy about it! Then, I received my letter writing. Screwed that one up! And then I passed for my comprehension and scored a beautiful 21 for summary! :D TOTALLY awesome! I usually suck at it! I swear.

Then I received my Sciences. Scored 62% for both! :) Great! Although, I'm quite disappointed cause I had hoped that I would score a lil higher for Chemistry. Jen really took GREAT effort to teach me! Disappointed her, really. But I am really glad cause I would usually fail for both, and I passed this time round! :D Awesomeness!

So, for my school, we had the criteria of passing our English and 2 other subjects in order to proceed to the next level. My next hope was humanities. I can tell you for sure that I'm not gonna do that well for SS. But hell, I failed all my other subjects! What's more, Sciences and Humanities were the only subjects that I passed during my other major examinations too! So yeah.. Well, I passed my Geography already.. Still waiting for the SS results. Dag Dig Dug Dag Dig Dug!

Ouh.. And by the way, we haven't gotten our English results! So the possibility of me passing right now is still about 80% I have to say :D Yep! Pretty confident! ^^ But NOT complacent!

Hmm.. Bernard and Shawn are really down.. Guys! Don't be.. Okay? Really really. There's still hope! Believe in that! :) I believe!

After school that day, went to have lunch with Mir, Quan and Leslie. Will really miss Quan and Leslie after they've graduated :( No.. I'll miss the whole cohort! Or my friends at the very least. Will really really really miss them so much! It's like.. I hope they'll stay for another year, but on the other hand, I don't want any of them to fail at all! I don't want them to be back in that ugly uniform... Sighs. Just hope that they'll come back after they've graduated.. =]

And after that, met Caroline, Harvest, Alfreda and her friend - Cynthia. Thankfully, Alfreda and I are good now. It's been so long since I went out with Harvest. And oh it was such a random day. Caroline went for a hair cut. Brought her to Alika. Turned out that she had to straighten her hair. Took her more than an hour! In the mean time, we were supposed to catch Eagle Eye which was pratically playing while we were at the salon! Haha! Funny! So we rushed to the cinema after she was done. We were left with only about the last half an hour of the movie XD GAGA!

And AAHHHHHHHH!! *SQUEALS*!! Guess WHO I MET?! Edward, double Henry and Zheng Jie!!! XD KIAAAAA!!! MISS THEM SOOOO SO SO VERY MUCCHH!! :D :D :D! HAHA

As for yesterday, I met Ardisa for lunch. Kinny and Caroline joined too :D We talked and talked. Long time since the last time we chatted. Missed it :) a lot! And then I went home to do chores.

Sadly, my happiness did not last for very long. I had to face the sad fact of my family. Just when I thought that I could finally put my mind to rest.. Things just happens! You see.. I am never in peace for long. It's like life is a drama!

Well, I went to the Esplanade with Phyone last night. There was a performance by the NAFA. Kinda cool.. But it's modern dance. Most of it being contemporary and I don't really understand contemporary. Well, I do understand the story behind each act.. I just don't understand the dance itself.

Ate at Thai Express after that. Phyone and I wanted to catch a movie but changed our minds because 1) there's not really any nice movies to catch and 2) the nice ones start really late. Ended up chilling at Hip Diners USA.

Guess what? The 2 of us had the same dream. To be an artiste! XD Haha! That's at the top of our lists but of course, we're not allowed to pursuit them. So, we're going to go for the one next on the list! :)

And it comes to today.. I stayed home the whole day.. Well, I don't know how long more my mask will stay put on my face. It's getting colder and colder.. I have to admit, sometimes, I am just.. Lost. Just lost. Lost in that dark cold cave.. I need to see the light. Well yeah, last night I received light. It was really warm and then I had to face the cold again. I've really been stuck in this coldness for long man! It's not really much of a "lost" case actually. I'm more.. Frozen. Each time I thought the ice have melted, I realise that maybe.. Just maybe, what have melted is the surface not the core. And so the melted just freeze up again and melts and freeze.. And yeah..

Somebody save me.

Knapa yah.. Kadang gini. Guess it's just life.. And also probably why I have my split personality. Kadang gw mrasa dingin.. Kyk there's nobody there for me.. Kmaren thank god bgt gw kluar ama Phyone.. And thank you to Jenny :) But I don't know.. Why is my whole being so complicated?

-"It is easier to be wise for others than for ourselves."-
Francois De La Rochefoucauld
I can never agree with you more.

I would want to live longer...

Thursday, October 9, 2008

0 comments @ 9:43 PM

Ouuhhhh I'm so nervous nowww x.x so nervous to the point that my eyes are tired already! And it's only 9.44PM! Well, or maybe it's because of the fact that I watched too much, actually XD

Hahas! Anyways, tomorrow is the script checking day.. And i am afraid that I'll fail all of them. Of course, deep in my heart, I know of friends who really have total believe in me. However, I can't seem to have the same amount of believe as them :(

Oh, good news! My computer is up and running again! ^^ Bad news: My parents just flew off today. This afternoon.. And my uncle and grandpa just flew from Indonesia yesterday. I think I forgot to mention that in the previous post.

Caroline's having her Bio paper tomorrow and she sounds really really REALLY nervous. Hahas! no worries sista! ^^ You can do it! :D

Okay, I think I should go now! Although I'm rather reluctant actually x.x Nights!!

Oh oh! And Isnu!! ALL THE BEST FOR YOU EXAMINATIONS TOO! :D HEHE!

Knp ya.. Feelingnya skg gak ada.. Haha! But at times dtg lagi.. I guess that's how he feels towards her :) Except, his is much stronger ^^ All the best to him man! And hahas.. Hope they can get together ^^

-"They can because they think they can."-
Virgil

I would want to live longer...

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

0 comments @ 10:50 PM

Right. This is like Mayday! Mayday! Cindy is having trouble! Mayday! Mayday!

So, what happened exactly? Well, my phone bills have been REALLY high! I do not know why! I suppose that it's the phone calls that I make. However, I can't really remember who I've been calling! I mean, usually, I'll call only Caroline, Sherman and Kinny! Miranda and Jenny too and I think that I called the two of them the most, but the record shows that I didn't them as much! Holly sheit!

Now I'm planning to change my free-outgoing call number already. I mean, this is SERIOUSLY mayday! I'm in deep sheit! My bills have been coming in hundreds!! ARRGHH!! What the heck!! Gotta cut down this month's till below 80, hopefully! That goes for next month. So, if I manage to cut down, I'll end up with about 200+ for 3 months. Which averages to 90+ dollars per month O_O

FREAKING SHIT! That's still too much!! Arggghh!! What's with my phone bills nowadays!!! T_____T I don't understand this!!! Even if I manage to cut it down to 60 per month, I'll still end up with 70+ bucks in average.. My mom's gonna kill me.

Holly crap... What have I gotten myself into?? Really gotta cut down!! Sighs.

Anyways, today was fine. Heard from Sherman that they met out at Anchorpoint for dinner. It was really tempting to join them, but I gotta stay home. It's my DAD'S BIRTHDAY!!!! :D :D :D Whee! A round of applause everybody! ^o^ We had a Teppanyaki-like dinner for the celebration :) A family recipe ^^

In the morning, woke up earlier than my usual lazy self and helped out in cooking. It was noodles for brunch. Then we went to the temple. Thank god, no mishaps happened this time around! Bought some magic cleaning thingy to clean our fridge. Asked Kinny for help XD Haha! Don't know why his help was the first to come to my mind. Welps, seems like today is cleaning day for everyone~~ Heeees!! He was cleaning his own house! XP Lucks to you, dude!

Kenrick joined us for dinner. Just a few moments ago I showed him pictures of Wayne and Lionel, telling him that he resembles them or vice-versa. As expected, he denied. Haha! Not gonna change my mind :P Meet them face-to-face and you'll be surprised, Kenji! XD

And TO CAROLINE: Heys hon, it's your exams!! And well, I don't know.. I've not been such a devout to any religion compared to your other friends, but here's from me. Do your best ya! I'm gonna receive my results on Friday, really scared out of my wits! You can do it! You're really smart, no worries :) But don't be complacent yupz! :)

TO ALFREDA: Heyyyss!! When are your exams?? I have no idea!! How's your math?? Can you do them?? I'm done with my papers!! :D And you said that your papers are gonna start after mine are done right?? Which means that they're supposedly starting or have already started, no? LUCKS!! ALL THE BEST!!! FIGHTING!!! WHOOOOOOOO!! ^o^ Love you always!! :D :D :D Hopefully can meet up after all your exams! ^^ My parents are leaving soon.. But my uncle and grandpa are here :( Sad~~

TO JENNY: Thank you sooo very very much for teaching me!! ^^

TO LESLIE: Hey yo yo! Hope you liked your birthday presents!! And hopefully you read my love letter :P TEEHEES!

TO ISNU: Man.. Again, thank you! For your never-ending concern ^^ I'm doing fine here.. Hehe! Well, for my exams, I'm just hoping that I passed my subjects! I mean, no matter what, I can't run away from reality, right? And I'm not planning to, don't worry. :) Will just have to face the music. I hope I'll really procceed to the next level! @.@ I've seriously never felt this shitty before!

Well, ok then.. I guess that is all for now. Oh yeah, yesterday I got scolded pretty badly by my parents and they knew that I was at Mir's. Shucks! I'm really afraid that her name has been black listed! =S

Good night everyone! Gee, I'm missing Stephanie and Isnu XD

Well, my dear, your heart has definitely fallen for her. Heex finally you truly understands huh. I just hope that everything will go well.. And I dunno, I also hope that I won't lose a close friend of mine x.x I don't want history to repeat itself AND I don't wanna lose a close friend!! Really. More than anything else that concerns this matter. :)

-To love deeply in one direction makes us more loving than all others.-

I would want to live longer...

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

0 comments @ 7:48 PM

This is ClarissaZ's announcement service:

You have 3 messages unread. First message;

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MAMA!!! :D

May things go well in business! :) And have along life! ^^

Second message;

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TERREMI

May your life with Mimi go well XD

P.S. Don't kill me!

Third message;

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DARLING LESLIE SANTOSO!!! :D

Although I'm sad that you've left me and gone to another's side, that does not stop me from having you in my mind :) Always!

Your ex-wife, Cindy, Hoping to remove the 'ex' that has tainted her status.

End of messages.

Hihi! In Miranda's house now! I'm being called an insocialable person cause I'm using the computer -.- haha! Which is kinda true, actually. So, shall stop! Well, the main point is that I wanna tell the whole world about my late birthday wishes, and the fact that MY EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!! YEY!!! It's time to rejoice! ^^

.. Whilst the results are not out yet XD

-"NEVER GIVE UP!"-

I would want to live longer...

Saturday, October 4, 2008

0 comments @ 10:44 PM

Heyss!! It's been some time already! Have anyone missed me? XD Hahas! Well, I left this blog with a really bad entry.. Really really sad. Didn't mean to leave you guys with that kind of impression. I wanted to update more. Sadly, the end of year exams were really near and I had to mug to save my life! However, I was really tempted to go online BUT unfortunately, my computer broke down. I'm not sure the what was the cause of it. I was in school when my mobile rang and my mum's voice cam through the other line.. "Cin! The computer went "pom!" And there was a sudden fire!"

Hell yeah, I went o_O you've got to be kidding me. So my poor computer was sent for repair and is yet to be collected. Wonder if it can be saved =/ Sadness. All the datas and etceteras there.. Sigh.. First was my Sony Ericsson and next is my comp.. What's following suit man? -_- bummer!

Right. Anyway, have been having great days! Although exams make them not-so-great anymore, but whatever! Forget about the exam part and everything was wonderful! :)

It's been long since the last time I went to a Christian church, well other than the time when I joined Amanda's for fun.. I'm referring to CHC actually.. City Harvest Church. I was once invited there by Sherman when I was still in Sec1. Ahh.. It was really fun! But I decided to detach myself from them because I felt rather bad as I was not planning to convert into a Christian at all.

But once again I dropped by because there was The Edge event. Kinda cool :) Well, my favourite part was the preaching about now and the hip-hop dance thingy. Oh yeah, love the songs too. They always have great songs.

And of course, the meeting of new people. Let's see.. I didn't really catch all their names.. And I'm not sure if I can spell all their names correctly but as far as I remember, these were the people that I met:
Peng - My big bro! ^^
Shi Min - really nice person :) Marcy's sis! :D The valedictorian of our school last 2 years! WOOTZ!
Wayne - the cell group leader
Lionel - Wayne's brother, also Shi Min's boyfriend XD
Christopher - this guy who I marked as very Cina XD HAHA!
Rachel - well, really hyper. But quite when she eats!
Jackson - First impression: Birthday boy! Haas!
Julian(??) - Right, I don't know how to spell! She's SMART!!! And friendly!
Kenneth - Hmm.. Very familiar.. Was he from my school?
Kiat Guan - Okay, fine. That wasn't really the first meet. Supposed I met him before at the alexandra hawker centre! But it's alright :) I now remember his retarded self!
Andre(??) - Orang Indo!! :D Play good guitar but I don't know how to spell his name X.X

Hmm.. That's as far as I can remember.. You know, I have a really short-term memory! I'll see if I can find photos ^^ Took loads and loads of pictures! HEE :D

Ok, here's the time when I just got to meet them for The Edge event. We were supposed to bring spectacles.. Well, I brought shades.

Those are Marcy's! XD

Cute?? ^o^

"That was very stupid!" - Caroline

Yepz, Semi was wearing my shades! (upside-down, FYI XD)
Looked totally like an alien!

Right, that's Peng bro on top of me! Man, I didn't even know him yet when we were taking this pic! XD

Yep! That's the bunch of guys, looked really happy yeah! :)

And after that, we met up again last Tuesday on the 30th of Sept for steamboat!

That's Marcy, Kiat Guan and Cindy.
Oh! I've known Cindy for years. She's Joanne's Sister. (my primary school friend) Explains why I didn't include her in the "new people I met" list ^^

WARNING! Retarded pictures ahead!

HAAAAAH! Peace me!! :D
Totally covered Kiat Guan who's behind me XD teehee!

And after that we played this game called Polar Bear. Really stupid and funny! In this game, there'll be three roles. Polar bear, hunter and villagers. However, nobody will know who is the hunter and only the hunter will know who is the polar bear.
So, everyone will vote who they're gonna kill and nobody is allowed to bust their own or other people's cover. Hence, it's up to the hunter to convince others who they should kill and vice-versa, the bear has to convince us not to kill him! Hees! Cool?
Anyway, here're the pics!

Haas! Marcy died and Semi was like saying "An si ba!" Haha! While meant rest in peace XD

Posting whilst closing our eyes.. Man, I look like I was praying! -_-

Credits: Caroline (Stolen from her blog! :D)

And that shall be the end of the pictures for now! :) Oh wells, didn't take pictures today cause I went off earlier. I just joined them for the worship today. Left during their 3 minutes of getting to know each other, chatting, actually. Big bro sent me to the entrance, real sweet. Shi Min wanted to do it actually ^^ Real sweet too! :)

Anyways, gotta go! :D Love everyone! ^^

With worries,
My life messes up;
With peace,
My world lights up.

With hatred,
My mood goes down;
With smiles,
my anxiety does down.

So why choose the negative,
When I have the positive,
And feel lonely,
When I really am not?

I guess only time will tell me the answer.

Oh yes! I went swimming with Jenny yesterday. Kinny was at the pool side. Oh yeah, Kiat Guan got my number too. Has, real funny guy. Hmms, Just now, I met with Sherman too and his new friend - Kelyn. Sherman was really pissed off. I guess they really shouldn't have done that and I am such a fool. I should have stayed behind. Call myself a friend! Double sighs. =/

And will my exams be ok..? I really don't wanna downgrade or be retained :(

Sumpah, gw mrasa gak enak bgt.. Rasanya I've really let him down.. Tapi gimana yah.. Si Sherman kyknya has REALLY little expectations of me.. Which kinda bothers me cause it makes me really insulted as well.. Gak ngerti dech, dia orgnya bae seh tapi gak tau napa dia cuman ada high expectations towards Jenny -_- I think he likes her! But he's just not showing because Kinny and Semi like her -_- nyebelin!

-Time Heals.-

I would want to live longer...