Well, I'm not feeling really friendly right now.
So what the fuck.
I did things because of reasons,
I don't waver so easily simply because of that.

When I believe in it, I do it.
So what the fuck.
Of course the things I do are not 100% right,
Not all the time, in fact, never.

In the first place, there is no such thing as perfection.
So what the fuck.
This is life,
Live it or leave it.

Okay, there is a reason to everything. Or reasons, in fact. Now, I did things that I thought or felt I should have done. Thus, this is the future me. All the skipping school and etceteras. The same goes for today. I felt bad early in the morning that I was late for school, causing Tiffany and Jenny to be late with me.

Just as I thought things has taken another turn, I guess I was wrong. I was out with Aishah and Dian today. We bought this necklace with LOVE and a ring with LOVE FAITH HOPE engraved on it. My being believes in all those.

With that exact believe too something happened today. Shall not go into that. Anyway, my point is:
I HATE people who blame themselves when they do not even know the real thing.
I HATE people who blame themselves because of the stupid conclusions that they made themselves.
I HATE people who constantly blames themselves, thinking that it's alright; thinking that everything is their fault and nobody else's.

I'm so sorry if this may sound harsh, but if you happen to be one of the people that I mentioned above, I advice you to change yourself. Here's why:
FOR FUCK'S SAKE this world is made up for BILLIONS of people, I swear.
If the world is going to end, are you the only one to be blamed?
If a lightning was to strike me right this instant for cussing so much, are YOU the one to blame too?

Everything in this world, I believe, happened for a reason. Just like how I lost one of my closest friend before. I thought that I can never feel any more disappointment. Hell, I was wrong! That was only one of the smallest type of disappointments this world offers.

I know about my friends who have been very disappointed in me.
I've known of people around me who've been hopelessly disappointed in me.
HOWEVER, I beg for compromises.
If you're disappointed with me, please tell me the relevant reason why.
If you're disappointed with me and have told me the reason why, please please please, DO NOT DO THEM YOURSELF!
Just because you're disappointed in me, does not mean that I have never disappointed in myself.
Just because you're disappointed in me, does not mean that I CAN NEVER be disappointment in YOU.

Trust me, it is not a "revenge is sweet" kinda thing. I am serious. Darn right serious. All the words that I said, my mind went out to you. In fact, it did went out to all the people. Well, except for one because I thought that he was well taken care of. Jumping to conclusions like that is not making peace with me. It is, ironically, pissing me off!

Udah ah.. With this, I think things are almost over. Kyknya gw jg kgk gitu demen. Dia cuman temen bae gw yang dengan sangat. Sad. Nah.. Tentang orang yg gw lagi marah sekarang itu.. None other than Sherman. Bete gw. Gak ngerti kenapa stiap kali gw brng sama Jen slalu something must happen. I feel bad! FUCK!


I would want to live longer...