I do not understand this but ever since I came back from my holidays, I have been very tired. Physically. I did not work out, I have not resumed on my work yet nor done any of my homework at the very least. I have just been attending school regularly and waking up punctually early in the morning.

This is just weird.. But maybe I may get my answer in a few days time and if it's true, I shall tell you this: I dislike being a girl at times.

I slept for a bit just now.. But am still rather lethargic and I believe that I do not have the concentration to do any of my homework just yet. Shall do it tomorrow then, I hope. I have to really get it done and over with. Plus, I bet that the teachers are only going to tolerate late hand-ups up till next week the most.

Anyway, my mum called just now. She was with dad and Tepot at Pizza Hut waiting to meet Pak Togar. Man.. When will this ever end?

Shall be a good girl here. Oh, Lilin said that she's coming here tomorrow but she didn't tell me the time yet -_- great. Hope it won't be during our school time.. If not... Well, we can't meet! As simple as that and I was rather pissed just now cause I called the STA hotline in the afternoon all the way till 6PM and none of their officers picked up the phone! How atrocious! I can't believe that they have such a lousy service! Man.. I should complain tomorrow when I go down to their office! A waste of my time and effort. Not to mention phone bill!

Right. So, I realised that I did not really care that much about my family in the past, I have to admit. I used to feel that I'm being pestered, patronized at and pressured all the time. To think about it, I must have been a blockhead. Somehow, after meet my family again during the holidays, I felt that family is very important.

No no, do not get the wrong idea. It did not take me 15 years to FINALLY realise this fact. I thought that this was true when I was young but ever since I was about 10? or 11 maybe, around there. I started to dispose this thought of mine because of the very reasons I've mentioned above. There's just always this part of me that wanted to scream and bring justice to myself. I do feel that sometimes I have that feeling too to the present date but I am more open now. I used to sort of shut everything out, I guess.

Hard reality, isn't it? And have you heard of the 2012 rumour? I don't know what to say. It is rather saddening and it's better not to think about it at the moment. Shall just fight for my youth right now! ^.~

And here's something that I wrote in class. Shall end this as the "quote" of today. Cheers!


I would want to live longer...